Hours

The theme in my life over the last few weeks months years has been there are not enough hours in the day. I know, we ALL feel this way, right? Well, I'm no exception and that's what I'm going to discuss today.

You all could gather from my first post that I have a family of two kids and a husband. Or, you already know that because the only people reading this blog know me in real life! So, yea, my kids are 8 and 5; I have a house; I work almost full time (32 hrs a week - close enough); and I try to do this thing called fitness and healthy eating. Oh yea....and then I went and started a blog because, you know, I needed something ELSE to do! Ugh. So, what gives when there aren't enough hours in a day?? You guessed it!! My eating and exercise. This is the problem.

Seriously....this is how I feel on the days when I feel like I can't handle one more thing. Like the thought of having to make something healthy is just too much work/time/annoyance. Why is this?? It's annoying and eating crappy does nothing to make me feel better or less stressed. Frankly, I feel more stressed because I just ate like shit simply because I was being lazy!

I actually think that when my eating is in control, I feel more in control. However, I would never DARE admit this! See, I'm a total control freak and there is this messed up part of my brain that believes the only way I'm in "control" of my eating is if I'm eating "what I want" (i.e. CRAP). But, that's really not true. I actually think that because I'm such a control freak in every other aspect of my life, I let my food take control over me! Wow! Mental breakthrough! This blog IS good for something! So, tomorrow is May 31st. I think that June 1st is IT. IT being the time that I finally get back on track. That I stop letting my food continue to control me and get things back under control. And I hope to be able to report good things to you all during this next month and beyond!

Ok. On a positive note. I have to say that I am very thankful for the type of job I have and especially the flexibility and freedom. I was able to spend my day today doing this:     

Chaperoning 23 2nd graders to an Indian's Game!



Because I work out of my home, I can put hours in at odd times in the day/night. Again, with those hours. So, today, my schedule went a little like this: wake up; shower; run (not literally, I actually drove) to Subway to get lunches for BOTH kids field trips today; come home; finish helping the kids get ready for school; get some work done; get kids on bus; eat breakfast; chaperone 2nd grade field trip to Indian's game (have a heart attack because trying to keep track of 23 kids at a ballpark is quite stressful); come home; go to an appointment for work; stop on the way home to get dinner (see - this is that food going by the wayside because there aren't enough hours); get home & eat dinner; continue working while hubby helps kids with baths and getting ready for bed; get yelled at by hubby to go ride Skinny B already; take Skinny B for a "quick" 9 mile ride; finish work; shower; watch TV while blogging.....phew!

So, I suppose my message is this...if I can find the time, many people can! Yes, I have tremendous support from my husband and I work in a position that allows me a little extra "freedom" in my work hours, but at the end of the day I figure it out and make it work for me. Do I sometimes fail? Absolutely. But, do I keep trying to fit everything in? Absolutely!

And with that, I'll leave you so I can go to bed! :)

Good night all....

Kim